Thursday, August 26, 2010

Am I dreaming?

This question I have asked myself recently while I was dreaming. Twice.
The former time was around three months back I think. I don't remember how the dream started out - I was at home and was discussing my new short hair with my parents (nothing bad, just something among the lines of how it's different) - but I had to go to school so sat on my bike and shortly after that I was asking myself that question, since some stuff was rather strange.
My answer was "Nah. If I'd be dreaming I'd know it".
The dream went a bit on and shortly before waking up someone was hurting me and I remember really feeling that pain. And after waking up I felt .. well, scared isn't the right word for it, but it comes close.

The more recent dream where I asked myself that question was just today. I only remember bits of it, for example some paramedics in red pants running through some glass doors. And being called to my alternative service job early, where I had to drive a bunch of paramedics somewhere, following a motorcade.
This cars breaks didn't really work and the opening on the drivers seat to the pedals was really small and hurting my legs.
Strange stuff.
I don't remember when exactly I asked myself that question, but yet again I believed it was the real thing, just to be corrected when my alarmclock rang.

I usually find dreams to be funny, even nightmares - since they are not real - but questioning this reality and concluding that it is not a dream .. well I don't think that's fun and again, scared is not really the word I am looking for, but I can't describe the feeling better. Maybe insecurity.


I have also been looking at a method for lucid dreaming. So far I have not been able to correctly apply it, though from time to time I shall try again.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Time spend .. not too well

I'm unsure of what to write about. Still, here goes a new blogpost:

This weeks free time was mainly spend watching Star Trek or Bleach episodes.
I found Star Trek quite less amazing than I expected it to be. I watched through the original series and the animated series, as well as having seen the first, second and the newest Star Trek movies.
You know, with all the Trekkies and the stereotype of a geek liking Star Trek I just kinda expected it to be something special.
I guess it was back then, and today it's still okay, I don't think it's anything special anymore though. My personal opinion anyways.


Apart from that I also played some games, commented and fixed small stuff in my code for Solace.


My sleeping cycle has been shifted around quite a bit as well.
When I still had to attend to school I would go to bed around 0-1 (not being too tired) and stay up at around 6:30, now I get sleepy at around 23 (11PM) and stay up at 7 (for alternative service). I'll be damned!

My sense of time has gotten a little bit worse as well I think. And from time to time my sense of balance is reacting slow, like lagging a bit. No idea why that is happening - not really just in the morning, it seems to come and go randomly, lasting around half an hour.


This is all I have to say today.
GLaD to make a bunch of blogposts again :3